Tuesday, January 20, 2009

sleep

sleep

n.

1. A natural periodic state of rest for the mind and body, in which the eyes usually close and consciousness is completely or partially lost, so that there is a decrease in bodily movement and responsiveness to external stimuli. During sleep the brain in humans and other mammals undergoes a characteristic cycle of brain-wave activity that includes intervals of dreaming

....."state of rest for the mind and body"....how nice and just how much I need it...I love sleeping, its one of the most basic and essential luxury of life. No matter how hard one's day is, granted he can get a good night's sleep, then its a reward for him to have gone through the day and its a way to prepare him for the day to come. It's a necessity, we need it, it's also a luxury, a simple one that in my opinion, everyone deserves. Just how I wish I could really put my mind and my body at ease before I sleep. Its almost always that my body is so tensed that my arms or muscles gets tired after some time if sleep does not come quickly. My mind is almost constantly running, as if on a treadmill, churning out a thousand and one thoughts, just like tonight, there's so many thoughts running through my head that I dragged myself up to write this down in hope that it could take a few thoughts off so that I can fall asleep easier and get a better sleep, but I know, I just know that I will take even longer to sleep after I write this down....sigh~~, I miss sleeping......


night.walk

Sunday, January 18, 2009

busted

busted
adj.

1. out of working order

I think I kind of busted my knee from my runs. Cant even manage short distance runs now. Damn!!! Guess I gotta stop running for sometime now.

Cheers
ahtiow

Monday, January 5, 2009

contradictions

contradiction
n.

1. Inconsistency; discrepancy.

yes, I could sometimes be such a contradiction to myself, the anti-thesis to my belief, anti-climax to what little climax that I should have had, anti-depressent that doesnt work, the caffeine that tires me out, answering my questions with questions, going against it when I should've agreed to it, nodding when I should be doubting, doing things that I should not be doing, not dealing with matters that I ought to be dealing with, pulling instead of pushing, pushing when I should be embracing, turning when I should be facing, facing when I would be better off not seeing, looking but not seeing, seeing but not believing, holding when I should be releasing, releasing at the wrong places wrong time, I am who I am not am, not am who I am...yes, sometimes I'm like that, but not all the time, aren't you? Aren't we all sometimes such contradictions to ourselves? Oh well, all these just confirms that I am still human =)

And I forget just why I taste
Oh yeah, I guess it makes me smile
I found it hard, it's hard to find
Oh well, whatever, nevermind
- Smells like teen spirit - Nirvana


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