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Doing everything that I believe in
Going by the rules that I've been taught
More understanding of what's around me
And protected from the walls of love

All that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try
I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

No point in talking what you should have been
And regretting the things that went on
Life's full of mistakes, destinies and fate
Remove the clouds look at the bigger picture

And all that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try
I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

All that you see is me
All I truly believe
All that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try

I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

Born to try - Delta Goodrem

reminisced, emo-ed....

was looking at some photos of us together on my phone. we were so lovely together. so much in love with each other. the way you put your arms around me, the silly poses and expressions you put when you were with me, the closeness of us 2 lovebirds being together on a world of our own, yeah, those were good times and we both moved on from that. the 2 voice recordings you recorded on my phone were so full of fun and love. time is an amazing thing. changes are inevitable. We have both decided to move on and its our responsibility to ourselves now to make things better. Make it the next best thing to happen to both of us after the 'us' in the past.

reminisced, emo-ed, written down the emotions, and now lighter....
ahtiow

Be beautiful.

was at a malay bridal fashion show last nite. was there from 4pm till 10pm. saw the preparations, the making ups, the table arrangements, the talks by the big shot, the waitings of the models to get their faces drawn, and all the usual hullaballoos of an event such as this. got a lil bored, sat there looking, observing. was wondering what time did the make up artist and the models started to get ready for the night's event? 2pm? 12 noon? or earlier than that? all for the 10 mins of catwalk down a makeshift red carpet with 12 other models. Will all the eyes be on you? or its your own eyes thats on you all the time? being self-concious cos you are supposed to be so?

the thing that struck me to think of all these was: those models are not professional models. neither do I think the make up artist is (who is a friend of my friend who brought me in to document his works). I wouldnt have think this much if these people are pros, being paid to do all these stuff. Those so called models last night were just there for being beautiful and glamorous for the 10 mins and get some nice pictures to show their friends and family and for keepsake. is this really what they need? to be beautiful for a brief period of time? Do we have to dress up 2 hrs earlier for a dinner at a fancy restaurant, being self-concious all the time cos we think we are to be observed by people around our table and those that we walked past? won't they be too busy doing these same things that you are doing to pay enough attention to you? another wonders of things that us humans do.


They'll be making sure you stay amused
They'll fill you up with drugs and booze
Maybe you'll make the evening news

And when you're tripping
over your dreams
They'll keep you down by any means
and by the end of the night
you'll be stifling your screams

Since you became a VIPerson
It's like your problems have all worsened
Your paranoia casts aspersions
On the truths you know

And they'll just put you in the spotlight
And hope that you'll do alright
Or maybe not

Now why do you wanna go
and put starz in their eyes?
Why do you wanna go
and put starz in their eyes?
So why do you wanna go
and put starz in their eyes?
Now why do you wanna go
and put starz in their eyes?

"Starz in Their Eyes" - Just Jack

Cheers
ahtiow