Pillar of pillars

Sometimes I don't know what to think anymore. I don't know what to believe anymore. I don't know who to trust now. I can't grasp what's happening around me. I can't foresee the immediate road ahead. My mind's a jumble now. A mess.

I have some pillars of which to lean on from time to time. Some given to me, some created by me. The pillar that she is providing is the strongest one for me now. Soon, no matter what I do, most, if not all, shall be together with her, for her. No more me for myself.


The Guardian and The Guarded

Things are very messy as it is now for me, I should not let things grasp the slimmest chance that it can have to mess things up further for me. I can't and I don't want to take shit anymore.

Family's family, friend's are friends, things shall go ahead with me and her in the front, then the formers will have to be put behind for now, at least.

I still care a lot for my family, I will always be. I will always be the son, the youngest brother, the uncle, the me.

Now, I won't expect changes, it will be me making changes from now on.

Hugs,
me

A reminder to self

"With the moonlight to guide you, feel the joy of being alive, the day that you stop running is the day that you arrive, and the night that you got locked in was the night that you decide, stop chasing shadows just enjoy the ride" - Enjoy the Ride, Morcheeba

- A reminder to self: Life is a continuous process, do what I gotta do for now while constantly be grateful for all the good things thats happening around me. Its ok to be constantly on the run. What's important is to know when to take a breather. Don't stop for too long, procrastinations will get me nowhere. No matter how hard it is, you will stop running once you reach your destination. Keep the destinations in mind and enjoy the roads! By the way, ahtiow, don't forget, you are not alone in all this, you have your other half running with you now! =)

Love,
ahtiow