Sunday, September 20, 2009

Chronicle of a Dick and a Bitch


Disclaimer: The following are excerpts from an actual texting session between a dick and a bitch that went on a few days ago.


The Dick: I hate myself for being hooked back on coffee
The Bitch: I tot wat.....dun hate urself early in d morning! Mon blues is not applicable today....coffee is gd...it makes u happy....just like how I make u happy. Wahahahahah!!!
The Dick: It's kinda like loving someone crazily. It’s the first thing you think of in the morning to get you started for the day, you crave for it at noon time when you are having a break from the morning’s works, yet, you still need it in the evening after a hard day of work, even though you know it may keep you up all night. Sometimes it’s sweet, sometimes it’s bitter, sometimes it’s strong, sometimes it’s bland, all in all, it gets your heart pumping. It’s tiring to be hooked on it and tiring not to be hooked on it.
The Bitch: Then ah....bathe wiv coffee lor. u can have it all over u then =P you see la, guys r damn 犯贱 (likes to be tortured) one. kenot have make noise, have it also make noise. its all down to one word. Possessive!
The Dick: So wat if us guys are 犯贱 or possessive.....you cant deny that we perks things up for u girls. So, appreciate us dicks and treat us better!
The Bitch: la la la.......making us hapy, not appreciated, but still dying to continue beind d clown is part of the 犯贱 process. lol! u guys wont be happy when we start to appreciate =P
The Dick: Bitches!!! Blergggghhhhhh!!!!!

Aren't we all bitches and dicks?

Monday, September 14, 2009

dog-tired

dog-tired
adj
extremely tired; worn out

As usual, been wanting to write for days, but as usual, can't write. Work's been tiring. Boss left with a day's notice to us, resignation tendered a month earlier but kept the news till the second last day. Was supposed to be for the team's morale reason. Don't agree. Not at all. Director has been awkwardly nice when he announced the news, I felt uncomfortably strange. Come what may! The vet is leaving soon too, she has always been the brave one, knew this will be for the much better =)

Cant see where I'm heading after my stint here. And it's an awful feeling to be not seeing the road ahead. A restaurant at a small town with happy nice folks who are more friends to me than customers sounds and looks sweet. But ......................yes, there's always gotta be a 'but'. Oh well.........

I need to travel! So so so so much!!!!!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

I should have called.

When there's a nudging in you that says "Maybe I should give a call to ..........." then, it is sensible for you to make that call and say that "Hello, how ya doing".

When there's a thought in you that says "I should've replied that email already, it's been days. " then, stop procrastinating and reply that email. End it with 'Hugs/Lotsa Love/xoxo'

When you think you should've gone for a family vacation then its not too early to start looking at the calendar and start planning.

Cause you don't know if the other person(s) is thinking the same. You may not know whether the small little gesture is what counts most to get him/her out of the hell that he /she was in. There's so many other you don't know's and what if's that may go unanswered if we don't start doing it. There's almost always no harms in doing all these if we still care.

What's the matter Mary Jane, you had a hard day
As you place the don't disturb sign on the door
You lost your place in line again, what a pity
You never seem to want to dance anymore
It's a long way down
On this roller coaster
The last chance streetcar
Went off the track
And you're on it.
Mary Jane - Alanis Morissette

Sunday, September 6, 2009

The Cove

"If you are going to watch The Cove, there's a scene that almost made me cry. Try guessing which scene it was then tell me ok? "
- This was an sms I sent out to a few of my close buddies. So far, Mingli got the scene right.

It is such an inspiring movie. I urge anyone who says or regards yourself as animal lovers or cares about the animals/environment, please, watch this movie and spread the words. These kind of movies doesn't come by often and it takes a group of very very determined people who put so much in the line to bring out the truths to us.

The movie made me think so so much. I watched the movie on Thurs, it is Sunday now, been thinking about the movie since then till now. I just knew I gotta blog about the movie and the thoughts that came after movie. It is not easy to blog about this. There's just so many stuff that goes through my mind. SO........if anyone of you who was convinced by my sms-es to watch this movie but yet to watch, pls STOP reading this and plan for a day to watch it, then come back here to read this and share your thoughts about The Cove, after you have watched it. (and by this, I mean you, Sheril and Seow Li)

I've always regards humans as being materialistic. Face it, we are. And by being materialistic I don't mean luxuries, I'm referring to the 'essentials/basic necessities' that all humans should have.. The house that everyone should have, the car, the food, the savings, and so many other essential stuff that we uses everyday, those are some of the many things that we tries of achieve from all our hardworks. Life has been a curse of working and buying since we were born.

Then, what about the materials to feed our souls? The sense of purpose in life (apart from getting that house for the family and paying the mortgage for the next 30-50 years), the firm believe in a cause (again, I am not referring to a house or a car, maybe building a family yes, but still, a house and a car is included in the package, that's where the eternal curse comes in), and the sense of self fulfillment that are not attached to the social norms that were imposed on us.

Work now has been a numbed part of everyday life that I goes through for materialisms. I work to get salary every month, with that salary, I buy stuff that made me happy, cameras, computers, air tickets, meals, get togethers etc. I am an animal lovers, all of you reading this should know that I am. But, frankly, almost none of my working moments can make me shout out "I love my job! I am surrounded by animals everyday!!!" No. It is not the case, was not, guess never will be.

By now, guess it is only sensible to clarify that I am not really against holding wild animals in captivities. I am utterly dead set against unnecessary cruelties towards animals. Killing sharks by the millions every year for the fins that have no nutritional values (and friggin expensive piece of junk), live skinning of animal furs for the mink coats for those rich (or self proclaimed rich brokes), eating a fish that are still alive with 70% of its body immersed in hot boiling oil, all these are unnecessary for our survivals, and yet most of the times people have to work their asses off to pay for all these that brings about unnecessary cruelties against animals.

The general public are just too engrossed in their everyday lives to pay enough attention to other stuff thats happening to the world that we live in. The melting ice caps, the depleting forests, the extinct species, the murky waters in the city that was once blue and clean and edible, the shorter life span of the population, the ever increasing percentage of people who are depressed and the list of the global epidemics brought about by globalisation goes on and on. Talking about globalisation, it appears to me that globalisation means the world are coming together to work more like the way the developed nations have been doing. Cut your trees, build your factories, create jobs, gets the market pumping, send more of your staff abroad, adopt different cultures, get rich, buy stuff. Let me know if anyone of you come across any nations who asks their populations to adopt the lifestyles of the people who leads their lives in moderation.

I've strayed. Now back to animals in captivities.

Like I say, I'm not against it, nor am I endorsing it. I know that if done the right way, keeping animals in captivities could spreads the message out that wildlife are beautiful and should be respected and they are depleting by the day (thats the main reason people pays to watch these animals in captivities, if they abundant everywhere, who would have paid to see them behind glasses?). Blessed are the ones who learnt to love animals through some encounters at the beach or the forests, not in zoo or aquariums or Nat Geo.

It would have worked perfectly if zoos or aquariums do their parts in educating and getting the words out. Rather than including some environmental messages just to cover their asses from those animal lover activists. But sadly, most of the time, the main reason to build these facilities are to sell the admission tickets. It is always an investment in the form of an arm by a successful company. Pure animal lovers and activists are generally poor, mainly caused by the lack of time and efforts directed towards working to get the next bulk of gold. They need some big bosses to build these facilities to employ them.

Questions: How many out there who starts to love the environment caused by nature programs he/she saw on tv when they were kids? How many out there who goes the extra miles for the environments rather than clocking in extra hours for the OTs and commissions? How many out there who are against whale shark in captivities but eats shark fins (sorry, cant help it, this person just came to mind)? How many out there who thinks I am starting to babble away nonsensically?

I should stop and wait to read other's blogs about this movie and the issues.

Oh, by the way, guess I should end this post by giving the answer to the question I posted to start off this entry: Which scene in The Cove that touched me deepest. - It was the last scene where Ric O Barry went it to the meeting venue of the International Whaling Commission with a TV screen strapped to his body showing footages of the mass slaughter of dolphins in Taiji. It was the look of determination, a firm believe in a cause, the drained out look of an old man who have gone through so much working for the dolphins for the last 35 years, the sense of achievement (not an achievement to be joyed over for) for having successfully brings to light the things that were happening in Taiji that has been denied to the public, the hint of remorse of someone who is regarded as someone who almost single-handedly propelled live dolphin shows into a business that it is today, all these can be seen in the minute or so footage at the end of the movie. It touched me so deeply.

Cheers
ahtiow

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Sheril Aida aka the Toots!


Here you go Sheril, a blog entry about you as per requested:

Sheril Aida: to put it simply, you are the most girlishly ungirlish girl I ever met so far. Always wanted to tell you that. This is exactly what I feel about you since the first time when we did the shoot with Alisa.

You dont use make up, you listen to rocks, you cant stand still, you sit with your legs crossed, you wear black plastic frame specs, you call the eyelash curler thingy 'The Mass Destruction Machine'!!!!! and you squeal everytime Alisa use 'The Mass Destruction Machine' on you for your photoshoot, you stone endlessly in front of your computer almost every night, you talk loud, too loud sometimes, all these and more makes up the ungirlish part of you.

Now, for the girlish part in you: You go gaga over cheesecakes and chocolates, you squeal with delight when the cheesecakes were made to the perfect taste and textures, you cherish your girlfriends' companies more than anything else, you go crazy over the guy who made you feel that you belonged, you cried repeatedly over him when its over, bet you still do now from time to time, you complains about your fringe while I said that it looks good, you gibbers when you hear a shocking juicy gossip, Backstreet Boys are cool and they will always be, all these and I'm sure so so much more that I have yet to see makes you girlish.

All these, the girlish parts, and the ungirlish parts of you, makes you, simply you. Thanks for the company!



Toots for Toots,
ahtiow

Sunday, August 30, 2009

she on her own ............and its killing her.

she tried to kill herself again. this time its not solely about her husband anymore. this time it was about her. about her being the black sheep. the one who ppl laughs and scoffs at. the one who should have died long time ago.

she dont care for her kids anymore. she said they are big enough to care for themselves. yes, this is because all her kids are not staying with her. even the youngest one who is still studying lives at her god-mom's place which is the opposite row of her own house. she only listened to her son. but when i tried to reach her son, i cant help but thinking that he turned off his phone like what the sister told me. how could he off his phone?! he is the one his mom loved best, the one whom her mom is most proud of! I know it has been a very difficult period for them, what with my sis tried to kill herself repeatedly over the last few months, with things getting worse each time. but still..............families dont give up on family member who is sick ! no. he didnt turned off his phone. there could be no coverage.

she turned to drugs for solace from her low self esteem. her lack of friends makes her believes that those junkies are her true friends. she have family, we are all here for her. but I came to realise tonight that she need not her family, she needs people who understands her, family or friends. she needs an understanding.

she is on a world of her own now. a very delusional place. right wrong true false are all over the place. that place of her is very scary and she is alone there.

aunkia

Thursday, August 27, 2009

ahtiow miss blogging

I miss blogging.

But cant get myself to blog. There were things that I wanted to blog. Ideas. Happenings. Thoughts. But still, cant. Writer's block.

Btw, Stereophonics is a great band! =)

Cheers
ahtiow