A war for corporate glory. Re-told as a fairy story.

Come down, slowly. Hotel lobby. Our lives are counterfeit if we don't lay down. I should be used to it, but I'm losing my strength now. Come a time when this darkness will end. A war for corporate glory. Re-told as a fairy story. Come a time when this darkness will end. I got enough respite to keep on trying. I got enough respite to keep from crying. Come a time when this darkness will end. We should be used to it. Our lives are counterfeit. So let's get back to earth and make the best of it.
We should be used to it
Our lives are counterfeit. So let's get back to earth and make the best of it.We should be used to it.
Our lives are counterfeit. So let's get back to earth and make the best of it.We should be used to it.
Our lives are counterfeit. So let's get back to earth and make the best of it.
- Starsailor, Counterfeit Lives

Fucked. Fuck the fucking fucks.

2.0.0.9.

The year 2009 is coming to an end. Theres only slightly more than a month to go before we step in to the second decade of the year 2000.

Some of the few things that happened this year include:
-put an official end to my first love that lasted for 9 yrs ; was hard at the beginning, got through it and came out still being me =)

- 'The Chopas' was unofficially formed around March (after Carlos' and mine joint birthday party) and unofficially dissolved with the relocating of Carlos to Dubai. He started this Chopa group (by the way, some of you may be wondering what does the Chopa means. Its just a bunch of fun loving wackos from my workplace who meet up regularly for movies, dinners, outings, shootings, beers, etc. And 'chopa' actually is a Philipino word meaning blow job. So yeah, we have been going around calling each other BlowJobs. Chopa Ken, Chopa Lee, Chopa King, Chopa MingLi translates to BlowJob Ken, BlowJob Lee, BlowJob King, BlowJob MingLi....yeah, we were so tight and merry together =)

-my brother in law was diagnosed with 4th stage cancer, around the same time when my 2nd sister tried to kill herself for the I-lost-count-how-many-times. It was such a hard time for the whole family. We got through it together and things are turning for the better now. My brother in law is going through the treatment so well and my sister has took a turn for the much better this time. Hope things will just stay going towards the better from here on now =)

- new buddies found this year: Ming Li, Jayce, Danielle, Sheril, Seow Li (yeah, all girls.....dont ask me why, I'm just better with girls)

- gadgets bought this year: Baby Monster (Fuji S5Pro), CherryBerry (Blackberry Bold), Macky (MacBook Pro). Yeah, this year has been gadget shopping year for me, all 3 most essential gadgets for ahtiow, all bought within a year, I think of them as 'essential investments for a better everyday life' =P

- in love with 马丽燕， not much information can be shared here. She will kill me. Literally. Ok. Stop.

- most recent: seems like my brother is slowly going into depression for his failed business from the economy constraints recently. Note to self: Try to call him more often to talk. Even we have not been able to talk comfortably with each other since as long as I can remember. It could be the age gap between us. Yet now, we should be doing something to make up for the lost time.

- things to look forward to before the year end: BONUS!!!! Pls............make my target 1 mth backpacking trip to India next year a reality!!!!!

till then,
adios and tata!

ahtiow

E vs R

Was watching 500 Days of Summer with YY today. It is my second time watching the movie in this week. I love that movie! I managed to persuade YY to watch this movie despite the fact that she was initially not interested to watch this movie thinking it is another one of those girlish love story. Many people would think this movie is a love story. It is not. Glad that we watched this movie together and I enjoyed the discussion that we had after the movie. Good movies should end with a little discussion about the movie from one of your best buds =) YY is one of my best buds whom I can talk to openly about anything and everything, since schooling time. Glad that we are this close after so many years =)

The scene that that I like most from the movie is the scene where Tom was invited by Summer to her party. This was after they broke up. It was Summer's engagement party, Tom didn't know it.

The scenes started with Tom happily walking towards Summer's apartment, with the narrator saying something like this:
Tom was thinking that tonight reality will run parallel to expectations.

Then the scenes that followed were divided in half, Expectations on the left and Reality on the right. Tried as I had, I paid more attention to the right side of the screen. As I watched it for a second time, I was able to pay a little more attention to the left side, yet, the right still got more of my attention, as you can see if you watch the movie, eventually, the right side took over the left, ie. , Reality took over Expectations. Just how much do we want reality to be parallel to expectations? We could do many things to make expectations realities, but how often does this happens?

Fairy tales are beautiful, as are flowers in spring.Then it's summer, autumn, and winter.

We've been living live in a bubble - High Speed by Coldplay

Cheers,
ahtiow

Significant Indifference

There's times when we just gotta leave things as they are, even when at the other end, the perception was for you to do something.
Sometimes, it takes more to do nothing than to do as expected. It's not always bad to be indifferent, as long as the indifference is a significant indifference.

Cheers
ahtiow

Simply sweet

Her: How come when I came over before this your brother in law wasnt here?
Me: He have cancer, he was back in Malaysia for his treatment.
Her: Oh.......

By now, you can see the change in her mood, from the cheery bubbly foodie who was happily finishing mom's assam fish to a person troubled by another one of the many things happening that she hope will not happen to anyone. Then I changed the topic.

It was when we were about to leave the house, she suddenly turned back and went inside the house again to tell my brother in law "你要保重身体啊 ＝）“ （You must take care of your health, ok =)

Simple gestures that means so much, we could all use more of these little gestures of sweetness from time to time.....=)

Cheers
ahtiow

Thoughts of a waterbaby

Have you tried to see the world above from the bottom of the sea? With a clear yet ripply view of the world above the water, apart from the ripples caused by the wind and the water movements, your bubbles creates additional waves after waves of ripples going up from where you are? I did. And liked it that I do that from time to time. Even when I'm not diving in the sea, I can still do it in the fish tank.

There is always a sense of calmness enveloping me whenever I do that. That sense of calmness is different from others. You need to do some balancing to stay on the bottom looking up, you breath in harder than usual, hence making each breaths shorter, and when that happens, and only when that happens, you can literally feel the pressure of the water on your chest, yet, I stayed for sometime mostly, just to be enveloped by that differentness.

Oh, by the way, if there is sun or moon or lights from above, the view from below is simply beautiful. The light is blurred, it moves from side to side with the ripples, yet when things settles you will just know that it will still be there. Always.


Still bubbling
ahtiow

Girls.Insecurity

Girls and their sense of insecurity are inseparable aren't they?

Bollocks.
ahtiow